Above Absurdity

I fear absurdity!
Once,
after everything bright got pale,
desires erased.
like dusk swallowing sunlight.
Every glass window broke
due to xenophobia
As, every cataclysm was a stranger.
I am sick of contemplating,
every ant's life.
Unable to stay awake and think anymore.
I sense the goodness going.
The madness gone.
A perpetual goodbye
to celebrate forever with a freezing sigh.
I hold the smiles,
spill them slowly all around,
To the firmament and lizards
And-
shoes and baby onions.
I fear, I might lose this memory.
This dear sad memory,
the portal to my good days.
Once again,
I fear absurdity!
After everything bright got pale
Utensils and minds
are getting brighter again.
Happiness and Sadness, just smudged.
The mud running in my sinew
cries, grins, dances
to the tune of fading footsteps.
Return before my arteries run dry.
Solve the enigma and save me from cry.
Conjure to calm me down.
And, make me a home
Above Absurdity.